Post by Smallfry on Aug 23, 2019 13:59:05 GMT -6
Here's a thing on some observations from my experiment, maybe it'll waste some break time (I know I'm definitely wasting a little break time typing this.)
A few months ago I got a sore throat and cold that lasted long enough for my husband to actually suggest a visit to a professional. I didn't. During this time I had to put all fishing on hold and it may have led to me gettin into a mental funk. When I did get back to normal I was at 2 weeks no fishing, no yard practice, no fly tying, nothing. I was a grouchy and bitter, every attempt at getting out was squished by unknown forces in the universe (at least it felt that way.) The self induced negativity really got under my skin and I figured lack of fishing shouldn't be an excuse to have a pity party, I am an adult after all with responsibilities, a kid, a dog, sometimes a cat. Since I was still having trouble making time for fishing I decided to put energy into clearing out old stuff and gettin back into other hobbies I used to enjoy. Hermitlike tendencies seem to run in my family so I started to communicate more with my friends and family. That helped me feel less confined and isolated, plus I could focus more on things at home instead of wishing I was out and about. At 4 weeks I had some coping mechanisms set up that seemed to work pretty well and my general mood had changed for the better.
Lack of a hobby shouldn't be cause for such negativity. Why the obsession, it couldn't be the hobby, right? Fly fishing (fishing in general) isn't alcoholism or substance abuse, maybe there are some similarities to food addiction? If so, that's more of a physiological thing, I think. This led to the realization that in my case the hobby was not the problem but that I am lacking in some kind of emotional maturity. I decided that I needed to work on myself and take a longer break from fishing, since I would still get irrationally irritated (and a little resentful) when outings fell through. This past weekend I finally got to spend a few hours each on separate waters. Absence really does make the heart grow fonder and I'm not certain that I've actually matured any but I hope I can be more aware when I let negative emotions get the better of me, especially when it comes to something I love and there really is no reason to feel that way. Now if any of y'all think I'm off, just imagine what my husband gets to put up with. Bless his heart. Also sorry if the over sharing ain't your thing but I figured it's fly fishing related and I got bored.
This weekend I'll be free and unsupervised, it's been a while since an opportunity this prime has presented itself. I've ruled out any 10 hour drives but with the weather looking spotty here I'm undecided what my plans will be. Where ever I end up will hopefully be deserted and I can bask in solitude! Y'all have a good weekend and if you get out on the water catch some fish!
A few months ago I got a sore throat and cold that lasted long enough for my husband to actually suggest a visit to a professional. I didn't. During this time I had to put all fishing on hold and it may have led to me gettin into a mental funk. When I did get back to normal I was at 2 weeks no fishing, no yard practice, no fly tying, nothing. I was a grouchy and bitter, every attempt at getting out was squished by unknown forces in the universe (at least it felt that way.) The self induced negativity really got under my skin and I figured lack of fishing shouldn't be an excuse to have a pity party, I am an adult after all with responsibilities, a kid, a dog, sometimes a cat. Since I was still having trouble making time for fishing I decided to put energy into clearing out old stuff and gettin back into other hobbies I used to enjoy. Hermitlike tendencies seem to run in my family so I started to communicate more with my friends and family. That helped me feel less confined and isolated, plus I could focus more on things at home instead of wishing I was out and about. At 4 weeks I had some coping mechanisms set up that seemed to work pretty well and my general mood had changed for the better.
Lack of a hobby shouldn't be cause for such negativity. Why the obsession, it couldn't be the hobby, right? Fly fishing (fishing in general) isn't alcoholism or substance abuse, maybe there are some similarities to food addiction? If so, that's more of a physiological thing, I think. This led to the realization that in my case the hobby was not the problem but that I am lacking in some kind of emotional maturity. I decided that I needed to work on myself and take a longer break from fishing, since I would still get irrationally irritated (and a little resentful) when outings fell through. This past weekend I finally got to spend a few hours each on separate waters. Absence really does make the heart grow fonder and I'm not certain that I've actually matured any but I hope I can be more aware when I let negative emotions get the better of me, especially when it comes to something I love and there really is no reason to feel that way. Now if any of y'all think I'm off, just imagine what my husband gets to put up with. Bless his heart. Also sorry if the over sharing ain't your thing but I figured it's fly fishing related and I got bored.
This weekend I'll be free and unsupervised, it's been a while since an opportunity this prime has presented itself. I've ruled out any 10 hour drives but with the weather looking spotty here I'm undecided what my plans will be. Where ever I end up will hopefully be deserted and I can bask in solitude! Y'all have a good weekend and if you get out on the water catch some fish!
